I'm starting to hate myself even more now and unfortunately I am diagnosed with Asperger's syndrome which sucks and no wonder I f**k up with conversations.

relax dude, messing up with conversations isnt a big deal

i mean, i cant keep one going to save my life (irl at least) because i am incredibly anti-social but i get on just fine. the self-harm part is what i would be worried about

i'm assuming you're smart enough to not want to do anything rash, but if not, then you should know that even if you wanna give up on life, it wouldn't solve anything and you end up cutting your life short and missing out on everything this wonderful world has to offer (like video games!)

Gl brother

we have a pretty gigantic variety of personality types here on mg, just keep on being you and you don't have anything to worry about pal

Yeah, don't let Aspergers get you down.

It's not really a big deal if you know how to deal with it. I have Aspergers and I still do better with convos than I used to. I still slip up every now and then, but that's just how it goes. You just learn to adapt and get used to it.

So pray tell me, how am I supposed to get adapted with this cursed freaking disorder that has caused me so much god damn misery? It freaking costed me dearly and I'm forced to wear an emotional mask just to get accepted by people or trying NOT to kill someone that pissed me off.

if you're trying to kill people because they "pissed you off" then you have bigger problems than your assburgers

Get help.

Support from people that care for you and a good therapist. I'm not being mean when I say this, trust me. Even if you have to start taking meds for it, it'll help some. You don't need something super strong, just something to help keep you in check.

Is that when you poop out Krabby patties

It's not much worth telling you to calm down, so I'll just keep it simple.

F*cking up conversations is a fact of life. It happens even if you have Asperger's. It's not something you should hate yourself for. Besides, you're one of the nicer people on MG. A bit crazy, but who isn't? As with everything, you get used to it.

I'd recommend looking into mindfulness. If you're having problems keeping calm, it may help you relax a bit better. But remember, there is no such thing as normal. If people don't accept you for being a little different, then they're idiots or competitive smashers

I guess you're right.

Just be glad you don't have schizophrenia

What is that?

Are you familiar with Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde?


Also, speaking from experience about the Asperger's part... Talk to someone you trust (eg family/friends) and try to get into therapy. Getting certain medicine (only if your doc/therapist is fine with that though) can also help a lot. About 5 years ago, I had very similar problems. I got into therapy, got medicine and switched school -> new friends (although that part is not neccessary if you got friends there), and now most people who know me dont even realize I have Asperger's unless I tell them. If I can tell you one thing, then that Asperger's cannot stop you from living your life, even if you are desperate at times. Get some sort of folder or something of moments that make you feel happy, and always keep it with you if you feel down. When trying to get into therapy, it will take a while, but it extremely pays off. On the bright side, you can request to get "disadvantage balance" (dunno the english name) which means you might get more time and/or other tasks that are suited especially towards you in exams.