that was what i meant
a mormon girl sees all the hookers and aids and thinks, "ooh, how exciting and fascinating"

Totally!

When I see the homosexuals wearing assless chaps to the gay pride parade in San Francisco, I think:
"Oh man that lifestyle is so exciting I should try it!"

wats wiff the anger?

u still mad u got crabs?

@Geno
Adding to what others have said;
I'm not a Muslim, but I'm in a similar situation here.
I really want to go and do the thing I think is right, but that would hurt my mom, in a moment she is really shaken and weak emotionally.

I know exactly how you feel.

In my case I can't, and it seems you have already talked to her, but did you explain your actual reasons to her?
I don't know your mom, but do you think that, upon listening to your point, your mom could accept it better? I mean, she may have the wrong impression, she may think you want to go because of different reasons.
Or, if you choose to stay, maybe could you both find a middle ground (like, she could celebrate Christmas, but not eat Pork, or something like that)?
Writing things on the paper and reading that before saying them helps a lot, you know, to reflect about what she could say, what you could respond, and trying to put it in a way she doesn't misunderstand you. That + what CCS said about tables.

I don't have much advices about school and studying, as most stuff was already said.

After reading your 1st post, I thought: "I myself would move in that case, I'd feel better and it could hurt my mom at first, but as time passed by the wounds would heal, and I think she would be happy to know I'm happy too", but now it seems to be more complex.

I wish you find the best way out. Well, remember you inevitably will need to talk to her and decide your future, and as I have already said, time shall cure the wounds.
In my own case, though, I'm just trying to make her proud, and comfort her, until I can do what I really want to, pretty much like you are right now.

Sorry for making a long post

First of all its easy to tell just from reading what you have previously stated that your Mother doesn't want you to go to your Aunts because she doesn't want to lose you, that's a fear of all parents that is very hard to admit. Yes she probably is very envious of the fact that your Aunt has it better, but not for the simple fact that she has it better. She most likely wishes that she had more money so you could live a great life with her, seeing your kids growing up from a distance as a parent can be really tough. Lastly as much as she doesn't want to admit it she knows for damn sure that if your Aunt has it better and you have the choice to live there, that should be the choice - in a way shes being selfish but not from greed but from love. I always tend to end my paragraphs with references so here it is, me leaving my Father behind was almost the exact same situation as this when you look at the core. I have lived in a small town (high school has 300 people D= and its 7-12) for all of my life, which is 16 long years and my parents divorced roughly 2 years ago. My parents never really solved anything but at this point in time I ended up at my Mothers, recently she got a job offer in another province over which is 8 hours away. The thing that ties our situations together has nothing to do with the surface but when I told my Father I was moving to a big city he tried his hardest to convince me it wasn't the right thing. Later on about a week later we talked again and he had come to he senses and realized that for me to live a life of proper education I would have to move to the city, in your case I guess it would be to live out your religion without the shadows of whomever. The basics of my lengthy reference is that as much as your Mother doesn't want to admit it she knows and has to realize that your choice is the right choice and she should support it fully. In no way should you force it upon her but you do need to keep in mind that she is still your Mother and no matter how hard it will be you have to give a proper farwell.

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After reading your 1st post, I thought: "I myself would move in that case, I'd feel better and it could hurt my mom at first, but as time passed by the wounds would heal, and I think she would be happy to know I'm happy too", but now it seems to be more complex.

I wish you find the best way out. Well, remember you inevitably will need to talk to her and decide your future, and as I have already said, time shall cure the wounds.
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Don't create wounds to begin with, no one deserves such things especially emotional ones.

It is easy to say, but even when you are ok with it, you may still feel hurt inside, and you'll still miss the other person.
Of course you'll still be missing them, but as time passes by it won't hurt anymore, and you'll feel more comfortable about it.